Tori Amos, life, the universe and everything

I'm not in love
so don't forget it
it's just a silly phase
i'm going through
and just because
i call you up
don't get me wrong
don't think you got it made
i'm not in love, no
it's because...

I'm still under the influence of Tori Amos and Sigur Ros, but (why there's always a "but"?) somehow it makes me worry. Worry about the friends I've lost just because I was such a dumb ass. I couldn't make their lifes better, a little more interesting - in the end I've just made them sad.
Now I get the chance to fix some of my mistakes, they won't be forgotten but maybe I can just apologize...